rebirth

well, i suppose its quite silly of me. but i cant help feeling this particular emotion. don't quite know how to categorize it. maybe you could call is envy? especially when you see two friends who just got to know each other are like incredibly close while ive been fumbling for more than two years. whoa. didn't even realise so much time had passed. lol. buck up dude.

anyways. thank you so much ken, for fixing my bow and putting the nocking points too! even though it took about an hour of filing the limb but eventually, she was reborn. and boy does she shoot well. thirty pounds of strength, nice curves and a cool grip. sexxyy. feel abit sorry for being pissed off at her two days ago. but i was feeling let down. well, she shoots perfectly. although i was quite tired by the time i got to shoot with her. hmm. time to name her. heheh. well i should stop myself there. haha.

i shall now buy ken kinder bueno as a peace offering. after all, he did promote me to professor. lol. i wonder if the other archers sympathize with me. bugger. wonder why my luck so screwed. one of my arrows was lost by marcus some more. really hope can find it. haiz. haha. that j2 jiahao commented me as being the next daryl. that cant be too good, especially since he wasn't referring to my shooting skills. but i do wonder why ken almost never makes comments about my shooting form. sekali he pissed with me and don't want to help me. haha. im such a paranoid freak. omg. it might have some truth to it. or i can be damn ego and say my form so pro ken got no comments about it. haha. but my groupings have improved tremendously. especially when i shot with her (the bow; no sneaky thoughts please). hopefully, the good form can continue. please god, let it continue. so it wont give ken any more reasons to sack me. haha.

well. had council interview today. omg. i was trembling even though i was feeling quite at ease. i hope they didnt see that. but my interviewers were nice people. i did remember to smile and seem friendly. haha. and so did they. i wonder if i said anything wrong. but i think i did qite well. i told them what i felt in a nice way. but it did end rather short. after hearing what happen to kaswin's interview, im quite thankful. well. i can only pray and hope i get in. even if i don't i shall not feel disappointed and continue to serve the school in other ways. yay.

and yes. i shall have to thank jheeva for his amazing "god-like" aura. right. after he tagged my board, like so many other people tagged too! haha. funky. repeat this performance by tagging again with the same results and i shall dedicate an entry to his pro-ness. omg.

cheers and goodbye for now.

bad luck

sheesh. my Luck really sucks to the core. really. why do these things always happen to me. got my new wooden bow on monday. really happy and stuff and when i went home to assemble it, surprise surprise, the lower limb cannot be screwed on properly due to some crap alignment and poor manufacturing. argh. now i have to proabably change the bow tomorrow. but there remains one last hope. i shall try it out tonight and hopefully the bow can be saved without me having to wait for a few more agonizing weeks before i can finally practise on my Own. wish me luck people, cause mine just sucks.

besides, team dinner on monday seemed screwed up. well, i don't noe much about it since i left halfway (or maybe even earlier :P) with guangyan. nice guy. can talk lots of cool stuff with him. haha.

microscopy prac today was damningly boring. imagine looking through a microscope for like 2 hours and drawing out the stuff you see. yikes. its scary but i actually did it. mie was complaining that she even got a headache. hmm. maybe her microscope light was on too bright. lol.

nothing much for school today. but went xboxxing with Vivek and ben low after school. played def jam again. damn fun. haha. was quite funny when vivek told his mum he was at the library doing work. haha. but again he beat in the 1v1 matches. team matches were so much fun.

yes! i have been getting lots of positive feedback for entry 28. they say it was cool and a good recap. thank you thank you. haha. i shall continue to produce more great Entries. Lol. And yes, entry 29 is in the works. writing is such a joy. and its even better when there are people who appreciate it. :) thank you so much people, for making my life happy! haha.

ohwell. april doesn't look like a good Month financially. hell Lot of birthdays of very good friends. And some of whom i intend to by pretty big presnets. hehe.helphelp. hope i can pull through. Maybe ill starve to death or something. we'll see. hopefully i will still be in one piece by the end of the month. haha. at least ill get thinner and doing pullups for napfa will be easier! maybe it isnt so bad after all. lol.

archery training tomorrow! whee!

stuff

it was a busy weekend. lots of work and studying to do. especially with 2 test in 2 weeks time. econs and bio. hopefully can do well. haha. plus was doing chem tutorial 4 for my own good and so that mr wong wont have any fault to find with me tomorrow if he does the tutorial. hope his impression of me will change soon. but i have started to work hard. with any luck, he should notice it and give me the due credit. wonder why he didnt reply me on his tagboard. maybe he really hates me for being slack at the start of term. Lol.

And had some really great gaming Moments today too. played Winter Assault with ashvin. utter destruction. pity didnt take any screens. it was awesome. Like a massive battlefield with hundreds of dead bodies and scores of soldiers battling it out. woots. we won eventually but it was against the Ai, so no big deal. damn chaos bastards. just hate them when they rush me in the first 8 Minutes.

besides, april is approaching. which means hellsing ova episode 2 is nearing! omg, i cant wait to see how they develop the manga plot further on anime. omgomgomgomgomg. haha. jus for the fun of it, ive posted a funky hellsing pic.

thats all from me for now.

New Entry

entry 28!!! well again its a rather short entry because i decided to cut it short for the effect of Inquisitor Lord Soren's arrival? haha. next entry we shall see some action with Pablar Lamelle! and friends. cool stuff. hope you guys like it. besides, the first part was mostly to describe the nature of the grey knight strike force since i realised there wasnt much coverage on them. you can clearly see that something is wrong with Cirrus. this will culminate into something quite surprising in the later entries. hope you enjoy and happy reading!..

thoughts

hmm. it seems that my imo hair will finally end this week since im probably going for a haircut this weekend. had lotsa comments about my appearance this week. mostly they were positive! hurrah! Looks like i have to keep it! heheh.

besides, just realised that my stamina has deproved A lot. i could only run around 5 rounds at my 11 min jogging pace. i walked lots and ended up with a 13+. insulting. looks like i better go for morninng 2.4 runs. anyone want to join me? hopefully i'll have some miracle for my pullups too like in sec 4. Miraculous.

went out for lunch with vivek, jheeva and nithya then went library where i met dylan and found this funky paradox book that kept me entertained until that dumb university talk. found out some sneaky truths about recent events in my class. heheh. exclusive info. whee. i wouldve benefitted more if i had just taken the books, left the Lt and used my time in other ways.

At least the talk did set me thinking about what i want to do with my future. right now, i have three very different paths for my life. wish i can have it all but thats crazy. i'd have to make a choice soon enough. hopefully, i'd be ready by then.

besides, while some casual reading of the bible, (casual only, im still 100% Mus. heheh) i kind off came across this interesting verse.

Beloved, let us love one another: for love is of God; and every one that loveth is born of God, and knoweth God. He that loveth not knoweth not God; for God is love.

interesting.

and i just realised im leaving cryptic messages unknowingly in my posts. really really freaky.

cowardice

i suppose its already been some time since it appeared but i must give my two cents worth. especially since it involves a good friend of mine. whoever did it is a real arse. i mean come on, prabhu is a great guy. ive had a lot of great times with the guy and we've been friends for four years already. i mean sure, he has his little flaws but who doesnt? i mean shit, even the bastard who wrote that blog is probably a screwed up person. i hope you're reading this man, cause that was way below the belt. i mean if you have a problem with him, just tell him straight in the face. or maybe you're just a Retard who doesn't have the courage to simply tell him but instead, spite him behind the back in anonymity. thats the mark of a real shitheel. if you still have shit for brains, which i think you do, maybe you'll continue your dumbass blog. if not, go and tell him who you are, heck even write him a note or something. wouldn't you just love it if someone created a blog to flame you?

hmm. aside from the intense litanies of hate, its just a one-off thing cos it really pissed me off. besides, today was an Uber-tiring day. got back the dreaded chemistry test. The grade didn't look too good but at least math test marks were better than expected. i shall not lament about them since they are already over. i can only work harder for the next test. besides, me and mie are striving to be top of class for next chemistry test. mark my words. Haha.

Training on wed was fun. went like 1.5 hour early with annalyn though. almost lost an arrow, when marcus shot if over. lucky it was sticking out of the ground and marcus almost immediately found it. my form has greatly improved. yay. even ken said it was good. haha. i feel so accomplished. now i only need to maintain it. And me and marcus did a series of attacks on our coach after he made the first strike.

Yet, despite all the fun and excitement, im feeling very very very tired the past few day. looking forward to weekend and that outing with the fd3 veterans. haha.

been feeling religious for the past few weeks. took this little translated quote cos it means alot.


We did not create the heavens and the earth and everything between them as a game. We did not create them except with truth but most of them do not know it.

chem test

argh. i screwed up chemistry test. but i suppose i only have myself to blame since i didnt really study much. but who cares. its not counted. i suppose i should work harder if i want to get good grades. hope mr wong wont like give me chem remedial. i do understand the core concepts but maybe my answering techniques need some polishing. just hopw i can pass.

had great fun at xbox today with vivek. played def jam. him and his damned snoop dog keep trashing me. but at least now i now sufficient combos to pose a challenge to his skill. pity jheeva didnt come and play. after that went viveks house to finish bio. his mum was very nice to me.

tomorrow got training. really love trainings these days. but ken keep suanning me. must find some counter-suanning and hope he wont kill me or something. haha.

and for my faithful readers, fear not. an extra long entry 28 is coming your way! that is after i finish all my holiday homework. heheh.

dreams

had a very interesting dream last night. the only reason why im actually blogging about it is because ive had a similar one 2 nights ago with some variation. freaky.

now picture this. (this by the way is yesterday night's. i made some guesses here and there)

singapore or some other country in the post apocalyptic future, and its snowing??. caused by some war or whatever. well, here i am standing with a particular female friend of mine, and looking around at all the ruins with noone in sight. We start walking around, hopefully to find food or some company. we hardly talk.

after some time of trudging around, we see noone. suddenly, she takes out some gun which i have no idea where she got from. she proceeds to kill herself seeing as how all hope seems lost. after a brief struggle, i manage to remove the weapon from her.

she shouts out "god help us!"

then i notice that someone is standing behind us. its some relatively young man that i donot recognize. he merely looks at us and says, "fear denies faith. have faith and constantly pray to banish that fear..."

and thats all i can remember. freaky. ill see if i get any more similar dreams like this. i mean, its wierd enough that i had it twice.

besides, i think there'll be at least a few people who will laugh at me tomorrow. hope it wont be so embarrassing. those who are wondering why, jus come and find me tomorrow and you'll see for yourself.

and im really screwed in my homework. haven't done my econs. didn't really mug alot for all the upcoming tests. at least i did a fair amount of work so that i wont be excessively hated by all my tutors. ha. and i did chem. mr wong will be so proud.

well. pity hols had to end so fast. but after all, its only one week. miss the secondary school days when we had an extra week for i-learning. heard that got cancelled too this year at ri. suckers.

ohwell, congrats to all those who survived vi camp. hope you turn out to be great volunteer instructors. especially you cyrus. haha.

latest entry

well people, here is entry 27. while some of you may think i've become lazy since the entry it probably the shortest yet, it was necessary thanks to a minor screw up on my part. apparently, i had intended for this to be a part of entry 26 but i kinda forgot. so i had to create an entry 27 for this before i turn to other events. 28 should come soon considering i have alredi finished a quarter of it before i realised my mistake.

heheh.. happy reading..

Emperor protects.

saturday

"They shall be my finest warriors, these men who give themselves to me.
Like clay I shall mould them, and in the furnace of war shall I forge them.
They will be of Iron Will and Steely Muscle.
In great armor I shall clad them and with the mightiest guns shall they be armed.
They will be untouched by plague or disease, no sickness shall blight them.
They will have tactics, strategies and machines such that no foe will best them in battle.
They are my Bulwark against the Terror.
They are the Defenders of Humanity.
They are my Space Marines.
And They Shall Know No Fear."

now that sounds cool.

bugger. i hate econs essays, especially those that our tutor gave us for hol hmwk. shiet, i don't even understand the damned question. At least i finished mr wong's chem assignment and bio tutorials today. then settled down at the com for some well deserved rest.

feel abit sorry abt ditching the og. but they changed the time to the morning. so i cant go since i wont have the time to do work in the morning and then go for the outing. even if i did go, i think i'll probably be stoning to death or smthing.

Ohwell, i think i have finally made a decision to do a clean shave tomorrow. So if you see me on school on monday with a different look, don't be surprised.

and im not gay, contrary to what some of you may think. you should wash your brains out and stop saying such hurtful comments. heheh.

and i jus wish i can finish entry 27 so that i can go to the exciting stuff. crap.

Grey Knights

Omg.. Grey Knights rocks even after the 3rd time ive read it. I wan to be a Grey Knight too.

beginning of work rush?

Went to vivek's house to do bio. Finished it and went to play xbox. So productive. probably not going for og outing tomorrow since the time suddenly change to morning. have to finish all my work. Sorry ppls but if it were 2:30 still, i might have come. pity.

Happy Birthday Brother Cyrus!!!

oh God. wish i was so much braver so that i could tell you what i feel.

(ps. for those in my og who are reading this, err, its not who you think it is)

archery camp and movies

finally, found some time to use the com. Been away for 3 days cos of archery camp. Was pretty fun though i couldnt sleep the first night. Training rocks and most of the activities were fun. Not to mention, the people there are awesome. I love the cca.

ken kept on suanning me for the whole camp. lol. as usual. i got my new arrows too! a dozen platinum arrows. with orangs nocks and black fletches. cool stuff. but we had to assemble them ourselves and i could onlie properly fletch 6. wonder wen i would be able to finish them all. At least they look cool with the black quiver and all. pity those ppl who got the jazzes cos they look quite wierd. Not to mention all the funky colour combinations of nocks and fletches.

At least could get to talk to more people and get to noe them abit better. That was the best part. but its kinda irritating wen you see ppl clique together. hmm.

Was broke by the end of the camp. had to pay for arrows, quiver, camp fees and club funds.. bugger. have to start using my reserves to cover me for the rest of the hols.

Went to watch movie todae too with ruth annalyn and jameson. Shaun ditch us for his class. pity. Damn, meeting time got delayed and i wandered around spore for 3 hours. well. did lots of window shopping in a couple of cool stores. wanted to buy lots of stuff but i remembered my financial crisis and i controlled myself. damn.

watched V is Vendetta. Awesome movie, quite inspirational actuallie. All the stuff and dialogues were really awesome. had lotsa fun too. dono why annalyn and ruth kept laughing. but i have to admit, V's mask looks quite funny. after that sat by the fountain of wealth or whatever at suntec and ate dinner. after that took lift on jamie's car to orchard. lol. now i am at home.

God have mercy.

pre camp

ohwell.. archery camp tmr and i hafta pck my stuff, though it doesnt seem so much. hope it will be fun. At least can get to noe the ppl there.

Besides, its goin to take up 3 days and i wun be able to post entry 27. Sorry folks. jus have to wait till wed before i can finish the last part and post it. Right now, im jus too tired to work my brain cells to complete it. Besides, i had to move myself up the black list. lol.

Man, i jus wish sumone would give me 1.5k so i can buy a metal bow in the future. Was doing some math and its freaking ex. heck, even the case is like $150++ Still hvent told my parents of the exact price though i did warn them itll be like at least 1k. they'll probably die of shock or smthing. Till then, ill jus slowly save up and try to pay for some of it. I'll feel so damn guilty, buying that bow that i want. Maybe i might jus stick to the wood one. haha. i wonder when ill get that too. hopefully soon, so i can start practising with my new arrows, which ill probably get tmr.

Anewaes, thanks for all those who nominated me into council. but its still a long way. i think most likely scenario is when i get kicked out during interviews. i do have a tendency to screw up interviews. bleah.

Movies on thursday! Hope all 5 of us who watched fd 3 can make it so we can make up for that crap ass movie. haha. maybe me and jamie can pull off another mean trick on shaun. heheh.

and Starfire is cute. omg. too random. shit.

mayb i should just pack and go to sleeep or something.

sorry

sorries mam, abt all the Bangla tingies i said at class, feel so guilty, jus was annoyed. lol. yea. and i finally remembered to search for his buggered ali-g cd and found it.

other than tt, nothing much happen at schl todae, bcos thursdae is the suckiest dae of the wk.. wish i didnt have any days tt end at 4 in my time table. makes the day so damned pissing.

besides, i seriously need to work harder for my fitness. 2.4 is easily manageable by i so need to work on my pull ups so that i can at least get a silver by jc2. ahwell, at least everyting else is allrite.

hopefully, the results for the short story competition will be positive. By the middle of nxt wk i probably wld have known the results. Wish me luck everyone!

O2 day 2

haha.. todae was a joke. first, we get slammed in the face by the family we're supposed to go to for batch dinner. apparently, we pissed them off and one of them literally snatched the batch of food from my hands and gave me a super pissed look. then they nvr let us in and jus shut the door without so much as a thank you. so me joey, van and sean were like e first in our og to haf "completed" our job. xagor looked scary stoning in his resident's house. freakkyy..

then we slack in the playgrnd for like an hour? yea, in the hot sun chatting wif frens and stuff. total waste of time. After tt, took a bus back to j8 where we lunch. and i got ripped off 3.80 buying a lousy nasi goreng tt was so shittily cooked.. gonna boycott tt stall aredi, disappointed me far too much.

Then, me and jamie wen to bullie the shit out of shaun while he was doing his business in the toilet cubicle, pretending to take video and photos over the wall. pity annalyn didnt save the sound recording. haiz.

Then, we poin debrief to watch final destination 3. omg, it sucked to the core. wasted 7 bucks wen we couldve been hafing more fun at big momma's hse or smthing or hell, even at debrief. pls, for yur own sake, do no watch that damned movie, you'll seriously regret it. disgusting piece of crap. it suckssuckssuckssuckssuckssuckssucks. 1st one was so much nicer. pity ruth tho, she picked e movie and now she seems guilty to e extent, she's going to treat e 5 of us for movie nxt tue?.. but im going to be a nice guy and pay for my own ticket.. lol.

then had dinner wif jamie annalyn and ruth and tok so much rubbish. had quite a lot of fun. yea.. den went home. wat a screwed up dae..

ohwell, lessons starts tmr and i need sumone to teach me chem atomic structure and bonding!!! need study partner too. haha.. side note, started writing entry 27 aredi, rocks!

O2 day 1

whoa.. todae was so damned boring with a few fun moments at least.. 2v2 soccer wif jameson ys and eugene was intense, leaving my legs hurting quite abit. pretty aimless if you ask me.. we were stoning most of the time and quite a few of my frens wen home hafway? lol

and tmr looks like its going to be worse. Well, at least we'll be doing work for charity so, there is an aim to it all. Hopefully the malay family we're going to has english speaking ppl if not my grp is screwed.. but tt is probably highly unlikely.

and got a pretty bad reception from the dudes at fa duty, where cyrus phagocytosis-ed me, engulfing me into his belly. yikes, tt sounds pretty sick.

and stop irritating me abt starfire pls, it was just a comparision. lol.

angry readers

Whoa.. i jus found out todae tt quite a few of my faithful readers are quite angry tt i left Chaos Gauntlet remain stagnant for like 5months.. but fear not, entry 26 is halfway done.. itll probably be done and posted by the end of the week.. sorry ppls.. realli realli realli sorry.. Ohwell, at least during the break ive managed to come up with a hell lot of minor details and twists for the plots.. so all i need now is time to actualli write it all out.. haha..

At least there wont be any lessons for the next 2 daes cos of orientation 2.. so yea.. ttll give me some time.. besides.. realli looking forward to tmr.. can spend time wif the peeps in the og.. hope nothing sneaky will happen tmr. Itll ruin my day.. lol..

Sorry again to all readers.. Most likely entries will be once a week or once every 2 wks.. Not as often as b4 cos of an increase in work in jc.. haha..

Speaking of which, i had a very wierd dream todae.. I was like an imperial guardsmen abt to get executed for getting drunk during my sentry duty.. interesting.. haha.. lame..

tts all frm me todae.. better get back to chem and entry 26.. :)

revival

hey ppls.. as you noe, i've revamped chaos gauntlet. i'll be resuming writing and here i will post wad i haf to say abt my story. haha. as well as other things that i deem important. yes and i did use the same template and the same tagboard cos im too lazy to create new ones. So sorry if it bugs you. There're links between both sites on the left.

As for the title of this site.. i realli dun noe, i jus couldnt think of anything else. I suppose you do need faith and well, this site is abt writing..

Nvm.

cheers and happy reading